ENMFP Volume 2: Chapter Five~ The DoppleGanger

      Hades had a plan to go against me before my very birth here. 
    His plan was to inhabit the brother of a lover, then try to lure him with a sex doll he created in hell. He brought it out through tar and disgust and made a dark fate. 
    It would tear at the love I had for a well bourne man and his family, trying to lure them with disgusting acts one after another while playing the innocent drone. 
    After watching through atomy their union the love I had for him is tainted. 
    Why Christian would ever clean such a horrid creature is beyond me, but she holds the stain of tartarus, so him blaming me for his visit there is over. 
    It is his fault now. 
    His fault alone.     

    He should not be using the ability to clean for spite and should know that it was possession to ever think of blaming those that do not know what is going on, or to assume their pain would be less. I also do not want that fate to befall anyone. 

    I have been through the rape that bleeds your mind because they do not stop while they stare.

    I would not want anyone to go through what I have been through. 

    I believe in things other than karma or the golden rule when it comes to how I do to enemies and I am known for that. To believe otherwise is to believe lies about me. 
    
    The doppleganger of Hades also has people believing I want something other than what I do. I make it clear over and over that I love my body and would refuse to ever have another. 

    Still with my haggard appearance and diseased abuse, the lover chooses to believe delusion to cater to the idea it has for a body. 
    A certain shape is not what makes the person, but I must admit that I miss my shape, as well.

    If I am completely honest I miss my normal body quite badly. It was not my identity, but a part of it. How I held myself, how I walked and talked and what I wanted to appear like being portrayed through a soft but stern appearance. I understand missing that part of me.

    What he must understand is that I miss me, and would strive to be me again, if only given the chance.
    Not a different body, but me in my body. Me, again.

    My will is to stay in my body and that is where it will stay.